Greetings From Home (self isolation edition)

I want to start off by saying that I hope everybody is doing at least somewhat alright. The days for me truly ebb and flow. I've been reading almost every day (just finished Just Kids by Patti Smith, by the way, more on that in a future post), sketching and drawing, talking on the phone with friends and family, cooking three times a day and continuously doing the dishes, laying in the sun on our back deck, and more. My opinions on this entire situation seem to change daily, sometimes even hourly. A couple of nights ago, I wrote a post that was mostly a rant about people being selfish when it comes to this social distancing stuff. After reading it aloud to my boyfriend, I quickly realized I had looked at the situation from the wrong angle. I deleted the post, and walked over to the couch in our living room and sulked until my boyfriend, Austin, made me some nachos. This time around, I'd like to be a bit kinder and less harsh when it comes to my content covering the social isolation acts imposed on most of America. Austin always tells me you catch more flies with honey than vinegar, so for once, I will be taking his sound advice. This change seemed to occur when I had a breakdown that seemingly cursed night, mixed with when I watched a YouTube video the next morning, uploaded by one of my favorites, That'sChic or Rachel Nguyen. In Rachel's video, she mainly takes you through her day and, towards the end, delivers a lovely little monologue discussing how aside from the terrible circumstances, it's actually okay to enjoy your time during your self-quarantine. I've read and seen this all over social media as I'm sure many of you have, but hearing her say it, watching her fly through the day doing similar things to what I've been doing, with a smile on her face and hope in her heart, made the light bulb go off in my naive little brain. I do not think it is selfish to hate this, and I do not believe it is selfish to actually enjoy this. As the days continue and things change, like our attitudes and opinions, it truly is okay to feel everything that comes to you. The other day I was incredibly sad. Yesterday I was elated and even found myself thinking, "ugh, I do not want this to end." Today I am bored and lazy. And that is okay.